April 2010
anonymous; did you stop talking to _ _ _ _
me; yepp
anonymous; why?
me; he talks to _ _ _ _ _ now.
anonymous; yeah i saw them together and i was like wtf, that makes me angry!
me; yeah i knoww, hmmm..
anonymous;doesnt that make you angry?
me;yeahh a lil its like i waisted five months for nothing yuh know.
anonymous; but still, you shouldve told him not to talk to you if he was gonna do that.
me; i guess but its kinda like whatever im done.
anonymous; i saw her too shes not even pretty, thats stupid.
me; idk thats all himm.
finally !
im donee, done with worryingg with the cryinggg the painn, getting hurt its over ! i called it offf no more friends with benefits, even though i tryed to be with him it wasnt gonna work cus he didnt want that. atleast now i can just move on cus im throughhh haha. it was hard to say gooodbye but will it be easier to walk away ? ima just have to wait.
daddys GONE, gone FOREVER. off to...
fuckyeahhlove:
Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.
-Mallory Marie “
“write me a love song with every breath taking word <3”
“just kiss me one last time before i walk away.”
i decided
im gonna be a much happier person from this day on ! im tired of being down, tired of being pissed or in a bad mood. i hate showing my feelings to other people when im mad, and them asking what happend ? whats wrong ? I’d rather show them im happy out of my mind and then they can ask why im so happy and all i have to say is what are you talking bout with a big smile upon my...
its my fault.
i know were cuddybuddys and thats all. that was the plan from the start &nd i wasnt planning on liking you. but after a while it took a certain amount of time,hanging out & talkingg; i realized that i started having feelings for you, its wrong right? your just an amaizing person,! you were there, you cared, you made meh happy hardly anyone can do that. for a moment there i thought i was...
and he said..
“were cuddybuddys, and thats all we will be”? i understand now. i tryed and tryed but nothing will happend if the other person aint with it. so cuddy buddys is what well be, or maybe just friendss ?
i fcked up ?
this timee, nahh i just took it too far. and im honestly sorry for going off like that. i hope one day soon well start talking (as friends] again. i think im just not down for the whole cuddy buddy thingg right now. a break from that sounds good to meh ! (:
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im sick and tired
sick and tired of thinkingg that theres a chance, waistingg my timee it will never bee im just a stupidd girl who cant get that through her damnn headdd “it will never be” !! im dieingg insidee loosingg hope,. i keep thinking im not goodd enough i shouldnt feel this way ughh ! im cryingg i cannt do this anymoree im just worthless someonee kill meh ! i hate thiss...
“sometimes i wonder, i wonder if i will ever be more then just a friend ?”
the meaning of love ?
i cant say or describe what love is. im fourteen years youngg, who doesnt believe in love. its just a word that everyone are so sure they have or know. i can just careless. I D G A F !!
whats your meaning of lovee ? huhh ? prove meh wrongg but have funn with that cus im a stubborn lil girl ahaha :D
“&nd sometimes i wonder why we’re not together yet. sometimes i wonder...”
““Life Without You”
Alone in hell, I have nowhere to turn...”
– Ray Ostrander
& i love my friends !
im not talking bout the fake ones from last year the messy oness ugh;
i meann the real true friends &nd also the new ones i made this year i honestly thought i was gonna hate cheyenne, and my freshman year but its like with you guys there i dont wanna leave ! im talking bout the main ones the ones that are always there for me and i know they wont run off like everyone else. i love the...
letting go..
i dont want nothing more then friends with you just friendds nothing more nothing less. i dont want your kisses, your passionate hugs, holding hands, flirting, the love. nothing, just absoloutley nothing. i dont want to like you more then i do at this moment. if your leaving then i dont want it any harder to let go then its already gonna be.
everyone was right;
hes not just graduating but hes leaving like for goood.
hes gonna move on with his life and leave meh behind just how they said. im just a freshie with nothing ahead of meh. &nd now i think to myself “stupid girl, why am i so stupid!” i just kinda wish i didnt let it go so far, wish my feelings werent so strong. if only i couldve controlled myself and kepth it to a limit where...
“and i heard it ! the gun shots.
as i was thinking about you
as i was...”
– anayeli de santiago
it sucks
cus im crying right now (april 2, 2010 @ 9:54pm]
im not crying over you cus im stronger then that but im crying cus of how stupid i am to actually think there will ever be the chance of us being together </3 :’(
